I've been meditating today on Eph. 3:
17 And I pray that Christ will be more and more at home in your hearts as you trust in him. May your roots go down deep into the soil of God's marvelous love. 18 And may you have the power to understand, as all God's people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love really is. 19 May you experience the love of Christ, though it is so great you will never fully understand it. Then you will be filled with the fullness of life and power that comes from God.
Somehow, the love of God can never become firmly planted deeply enough in my heart. For a moment, I know that love deeply, and then, a moment later, my inner world seems rocked by insecurity, fear, uncertainty, doubt, confusion, loss of identity.
Not that I walk around fully conscious of this, but I have come to realize that the more I am "checking out," running, driving, staying out of touch with myself, or losing myself in activity or busyness, the more my inner world is filled with grief rather than His love. That's why I'm running. On the other hand, the more my inner world is filled with His love, the less need I have to "lose myself" because the more I am at peace with myself and at peace within myself.
How good His love is. Like a feast for the hungry, like a river for the thirsty. How deeply do I need to be surrounded by and satiated by that love. How much and how regularly do I need to be in that place where I am receiving, soaking, filling up, and drinking in the wine of His Spirit and thus, the flow of His love. Nothing, nothing, nothing touches the inner core of who I am like His touch.
How basic is this? Yet, it's as profound as it gets!
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