I have been slow to write recently. I'm not exactly sure what is going on. I have felt simply dull for several days now. I wouldn't call it blue, not down, just dull, complacent, un-ernegized... Certainly no stirring passion for reaching toward Deity. I don't feel distant or disengaged from Him... just not compelled toward much of anything.
I can worship, pray, meditate, but it's just not that alive to me. I know that I'm just talking feelings here (or lack of them), but hey, I'm a feeling kind of guy.
I'm okay with where I'm at. I am aware that resting, reaching, and yet just accepting where I am is all part of the process, feelings or not. It's okay. But I like it better when I'm stirred, moved, empassioned, made alive and energized by the Spirit's presence, leading, and life within.
Ah dull heart, just wait. Your time will come again!
I know what you mean(!) And, the timing of your post and one at Flos Carmeli is very good, I think ( at http://floscarmeli.stblogs.org/archives/week_2004_05_02.html#014933 ).
Posted by: Steve Bogner | May 04, 2004 at 04:22 AM